October Meditations

I couldn’t find the right quote this month and so, I am going to write this without that as a guide. There is a lot that I want to tell you, a lot that I want to share. Sometimes, I don’t have the words to perfectly do that, which, as a songwriter, frustrates me.

I should have the words.

We just finished the tour, which is always emotional and….as you can imagine…the travel is exhausting and exhilarating all at once. Our time in Canada was incredible. The fans are passionate about Country and it was a beautiful journey. I wish I could explain it to you so that you could feel it.

I should have the words.

Being on stage with the Easy Money Band and with Toby is always interesting, always different, always incredibly special…looking out at the fans, watching people sing and dance and laugh is, at times, surreal and I want you to see what I see.

I should have the words.

Walking into my house after several weeks away is so exciting. My “girls” (the dogs) passionately run out of the garage, jump and bark and smile, I swear they smile. I laugh and tell them, “Mommy is home and she loves you…” I would like for you to hear what I hear.

I should have the words

The reality is that we don’t always have the words. And as much as we try to find them, and to speak them sometimes they are simply not there…sometimes the words we desire escape us, maybe sometimes they hide from us…I think that sometimes words know that they are not enough. I think that sometimes words know that they can’t do what silence can…. Silence can make you sad, make you wonder, make you pause in your steps. Silence can help you think, can give you peace…it can lull you to sleep and it can keep you awake. Silence can be a yes, it can be a no and it can be a maybe. Silence encompasses all and at the same time is nothing. And once again…

I should have the words…

But I don’t. and I bet you can still hear me. I bet that my lack of words is somehow powerful enough to give you this hint…all of the words I couldn’t find…the words to describe Canada, my stage life with Toby, and my home…all of those experiences are beyond words, and therefore Silence is sufficient.

For this month I ask you, have you been trying to speak when words are not necessary; have you been hoping to hear something from someone when all of the time Silence is desperately hoping that you will listen to her…hoping you will listen to what isn’t being said and wanting you to understand that sometimes words only confuse the beautiful essence of what is…